Wednesday 11 June 2008

England here I come.....

Today I will be leaving Mexico, after nearly 10 weeks - Armond and I had some wonderful days in Zihuatanejo, a little fishing town and stayed at the amazing La Casa Que Canta. This was probably the most spectacular boutique Hotel I have been to - and fantastic personal service. You feel like you are in your own home. It was such a bliss to do nothing, relaxing, no boot-camp...

We did a bit of dialogue practising - Armond has been great and was a student doing the postures while I delivered the dialogue.

Anyway, my life is now about to take another turn, back to the life I left behind. I'm excited, ready for it but also a little apprehensive, mainly as I will be returning as a Yoga teacher. But I am going to embrace it, and fully jump into the cold water and hope I can teach as soon as possible my first class.

It's been great to give my body a rest, my knees are still sore but will start practising again either Thursday or Friday.

We will head back to Acapulco today where we catch the flight to Mexico City and then have a night flight to London.

Well, what a journey this has been.....and I've done it!!!

My journal has now come to an end, at least for this chapter.

Love,
Katherine xx

Sunday 8 June 2008

Last night week 9 / Post Training

Well, Friday night, after graduation the party begun - I was not aware that many students were so desperate to celebrate with alcohol, cigarettes and whatever else...anyway, I had a quarter of a beer and didn't really fancy any more alcohol - but there were big parties happening, the official one down by the beach with drinks/cocktails/and a marshmellow bombfire and then some inofficial groovy and crazy room parties. It was crazy, all a bit too much, as we were also so tired and had only just finished our 9 weeks intensive program. Then at 11pm the Disco started! Armond and I were about to go to bed but then just popped to the in house Disco - and it was actually really good and there must have been about 70 or so Yogis in there dancing their socks off and celebrating!!

So we got to bed exhausted about 1am. Saturday morning another early start to get packed, say good bye to as many people as possible and then finally leave what has been my home for the last 9 weeks, the Acapulco Princess. I was glad and ready to leave and to finally have some quality time with Armond and transition into the other Katie world again.

I'm now writing this from a little Mexicon fishing village, Hotel Casa que quanta, Zihuatanejo. About 4 hours up north from Acapulco. This is a wonderful retreat and just such bliss to relax and do nothing and induldge in some amazing fresh fish and seafood.

It's good, and altough I'm a little apprehensive teaching my first class I will go for it with all my heart and soul. After all I have succeeded the 9 weeks teacher training so this is just a continuation of my training.

Hope to see many of you all soon again in person.

Lots of love,
Katexxxxxx

Friday 6 June 2008

Week 9 - Friday evening - GRADUATION

Well, I am in a strange and surreal space right now. It is 6:30pm and today was my final and last day of training which was graduation. I have graduated and received my certificate from Bikram with a handshake and a kiss from Rasheshree, his wife. It has been a lovely day, but also quite sad. Naturally I am SO happy not to have to do another Yoga class today, or tomorrow and can finally give my body a rest, but we have been in such a bootcamp lifestyle that this sudden freedom is almost a bit scary and you feel kind of lost.

Armond has been with me these last 4 days and again I must say that he has been great, just being by my side, while I have still been in my Yoga bubble ' and now I am neither here nor there! But by tomorrow when we leave here I will feel better. It is the letting go process now, saying good bye to these people I have shared my last 9 weeks with. The good and the bad times, we went through it all together.

On Thursday night I was pretty unwell, think I had a bit of fever and the body was sore all over, I think it was a clear sign to tell me that I needed a rest. But Friday was ok again and my last two classes, with Rash and Bikram were pretty good. Altough my best one was on Wednesday night with Craig.

I would like to say again, how amazing this experience was for me, I was pretty insecure at first about making a decision to do the training or not but now I can honestly say that I don´¨t regret any minute (well apart from some of the lecture sessions....) of this training. It is not possible to put in words my experiences and thoughts and emotions. Lets just say it was pretty damm amazing!!!

Armond and I will now head up the coast for a couple of days relaxation before flying back to London where I will hopefully be able to teach my first Bikram Yoga Class. Armond has caught a nasty cold here so we both just need some peace and quiet now.

With this, last entry, I would like to thank my dear husband, my family, Helen, Davina and my friends for all their support and encouragement which has been so helpful to get me through these 9 weeks.

Remember: We are all capable of much more then we think so, you just have to explore it and sometimes tap into the unknown, I know it´s scary at the beginning, being out of the comfort zone. But so gratifying once you have explored the bigger picture of this life.

With love always,

Namaste.

Katherine, certified Bikram Yoga Instructor as of Friday 6th June 2008, Acapulco

Thursday 5 June 2008

Week 9 - Thursday Night - I'VE DONE IT

I have finished my 98th class tonight, and with that my last and final class during training!!! I can't quite believe it yet - it was pretty emotional at the end and Armond was there too and took some good photos - will put on blog soon.

I AM FEELING SO HAPPY AND LIGHT - I have completed all 98 classes and NEVER had to leave the room. I am pretty proud of myself!

It's quite surreal everything at the moment - we have one more lecture tonight which hopefully wont last too long and then graduation tomorrow.

The time is close to say good bye to all these wonderful people here. They will always be in my heart. We have shared so much together.

Katherine xxxx

Wednesday 4 June 2008

Week 9 - Wednesday evening

My Last Craig Class!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I felt pretty rotten today, not right in the belly, some intestinal issues, a really low energy class today and then I felt this afternoon like having the flu, my whole body was sore.

So I snoozed 20 mins during the afternoon lecture preparing myself for the 5pm final class with Craig. I was pretty worried how I would actually manage it.

And I did manage it, with grace, strength, committment and energy. It's magical, this Yoga can turn your whole body and mind around.

It was an amazing class with what I must say the best teacher I have ever experienced.

I was in row 4 and my two neighbours and I just gave out united strength and energy.

I can't believe that there are only 2 classes left to go.

Armond has been so supportive and always there for me despite me still being in my Yoga bubble. He understands so well what I am going through having done the training himself a couple of years ago.

1 more day training to go.

This is the MOST AMAZING AND TOUGH EXPERIENCE OF MY LIFE.

Namaste (the light in me greets the light in you)

Katherine

Week 9 - Wednesday

It's 7:30 am and I'm about to leave for my morning class, 4 classes to go now until I finish!!!! And Week 9 has so far been challenging (yet again) - the boddy is really tired now and even the weekends are not enough to recover, and then we started the week with a late night on Monday, watching bollywood films (mandatory) until 2:45 am. The knocks me side-ways....

As you all know my dear husband Armond is here. He is incredibly supportive and has been taking part in most of the yoga classes. We will both be glad though once the training is over, as right now I am partly wife and partly a yogini in the yoga bubble wrapped up in all my yoga world.

Armond very kindly brought me 3 sandwiches last night at midnight into the lecture theatre after bikram announced yet more videos - I distributed them amongst about 10 people in our row who were so grateful for a midnight snack. But then the video that Bikram wanted to show had by mistake not been sent in from headquarters. So he was NOT happy at all and let us go shortly after midnight but the staff had to stay behind and discuss the situation with him.

So my guess is that tonight will be a late one, at least I slept nearly 7 hours last night. I'm getting really really exhausted now and am longing for some quiet days with Armond in a different environment.

Well, and for the building up aspect of this training. I'm still kind of waiting for it. You know, they break us down here and then supposidely should build us up. But I think they are leaving it up to ourselves to rebuild us.

So it's been a normal week, like any other, not extra goodie or any free time or anything like that. It might still come.

I can't believe I'm almost at the peak of the mountain. Wow, how exciting and thrilled am I!!!

Well, will write more soon.

Lots of love,
Kxxxx

Sunday 1 June 2008

Week 8 - Armond hijacks the blog!

Katherine has allowed me to write an entry on her blog.



I arrive late on Friday evening at the Fairmont Princess 5 Star Yoga Prison Camp, just in time to catch the last half hour of the talent show. I saw a spectacular Bollywood dance routine put together by a dozen or so students which was a lot of fun. The show was accompanied by the erractic movements of a low flying bat that had lost his way and ended up in the theatre ... whoops of girlish screams (mostly from the men) as the bat threatened to land on someone's head. Eventually one girl picked the bat up with her hands and set it free outside.



It was dark in the theatre so I was not able to see Katherine. It was strange that after all these weeks we were in the same room for over half an hour and still not together ...



Anyway the show ended and everyone filtered out and I still couldn't see her. I called her mobile and it went to voice mail. I wandered around for a while, asked a couple of yogis if they'd seen her and no luck. Finally I called again and she picked up the phone. She was in the lobby with Simone. I caught sight of them and walked up behind her and gave her a little kiss on the shoulder.



Now at this point you might imagine that there would be a Hollywood type of lover reunion complete with slow motion kisses in the pouring rain. Instead the reality was Katherine frozen stiff with mild shock! She kept averting her gaze from me because somehow the emotion was too much to process. When Simone said she'd leave us together, we both insisted she joins us for a drink! She did and we joked and chatted for a while. It was really nice and slowly we both got used to being together again. It was lovely!



K looks great. She has grown taller (if that were possible)! She has really bonded with her fellow students and its amazing to see her so comfortable with all these different types of people - and they all love her :)



We went to bed at 1am on Friday night and I took a sleeping pill to make sure I'd get a full nights sleep and get over the jet lag. There was the usual yoga class at 8am on Saturday. I had no intention of joining it of course. I have hardly practiced or taught in 18 months and there was no way I was going to start my baptism of fire with jet lag and Rohypnol! But then K woke up at 7 and somehow the energy at this place worked its magic. How could I NOT practice? I jumped out of bed and went down to the torture chamber. I had a wonderful class. It was a privelege to be part of the union. And afterwards I jumped into the ocean and we drank the juice of a huge coconut. (THIS WAS NOT HOW OUR TRAINING WAS IN THE CAR PARK LOT OF LA CIENEGA BLVD IN LA!!!!!)



Anyway I could go on and on but this is K's blog and she always says I talk too much anyway (where did she get that idea?!) ...



Next Friday its all over and on Saturday we head up the coast for 4 days of solitude and relaxation in Ixtapa.



Namaste



Husband of Katherine the Yogini

Friday 30 May 2008

Week 8 - Friday night - Armond arriving!!

Wow, I feel like I have climbed Mount Kilimanjaro this week, this was really a struggle this week (do I write this about every week :-) ). It felt like a life time and generally had low energy....but picked up a little yesterday and today. Well Armond has just called me to say he arrived safely in Mexico City - I cannot believe that I am going to see my dear husband again tonight, after 8 weeks apart. I'm so happy to finally see him again and be together. Altough it will also be a little strange, as he will be entering my yoga life bubble here.....and at the same time I woke up this morning realizing that this training is going to be over in a couple of days and this scared me and kind of.....am I ready to face the world out there again?? This training has been so intensive it really shifts something inside you. But I'm just acknowledge these feelings and they are quite normal as I've spoken to some of the of the other sutdents and they have similar thoughts. There is a very strong bond between most of the 280 students. We all take each other for face value. Very special.

Anyway, tonight we have the talent show - 26 acts will be presented. There are many students who are actors, singers, performers, dancers etc. so they have been practising for the past 2 weeks to present tonight. I'm very excited and no doubt there will be tears and laughter. People are generally speaking pretty emotional at this stage and it does not take a lot to get the tears going!!

Bikram has sponsered us pizza so I'm about to go down for dinner.

5 more days TRAINING. I can't believe it!!

Lots of love and bye for now ( I think Armond might make the next entry!)

Katherine, almost a Bikram Yoga Teacher!!!

Tuesday 27 May 2008

Tuesday evening - Week 8

....was sitting in the Savasana after Yoga class (relaxing, dead body bose asana), sweat dripping all over my body, the towel absolutely drenched in sweat, listening to another of Bikram's songs and was looking around the room (not part of Savasana!) thinking this is not going to last much longer and was looking over the the other side of the room where I started my first class nearly 9 weeks ago. How far I have come since that day - physically and emotionally, that is pretty amazing.

This was has so far been mixed, finished the official posture clinic which is great and have now started the moc classes which are more informal and give us a chance to practice. But I would wish that we would get a little more compassion from the teachers at this stage or a little 'goodie' once in a while, espcially as we are 4 days ahead in finishing our posture clinic....so am a little disappointed - was really excited about week 8 and about feeling amazing and full of energy and adrenalin, but that has not kicked-in, yet.

My body has started to ache at most places possible and altough the evening classes are still relatively strong I am slowly reaching my limit of doing 3 hours Yoga a day...I think my body is really longing for a break!

Well, I'm using my spare time right now to practice the dialogue with some of the group 10 people, I want to make the most out of my time here in preparing for coming back to England to teach (the thought thrills me with excitment!!!!!)

About to have a in room dining Burger with Anna before we start practicing.

Another evening lecture but at least right now I get 6 hours of sleep the last two days which is great!

Love,
Katherine

Sunday 25 May 2008

final photos for now...





I know, not the best photos but the girl you see is this years Yoga Championship Winner, Alicia. She is also a Bikram Teacher. This was a special press conference demo we had in the lobby of the hotel for the Mexican press and tv re Bikram doing his Teacher Training here in Acapulco. The demonstrators were all senior Teachers, and Alicia. So no, not us the students, I think we need a couple of years until our postures look like that. At least for most of us.
YIPEEEEEE week 8 is about to start and I'm ready, lets have some rocking Yoga classes and let me rock out that final posture, the Spine Twist, with confidence and strength.
And next Friday my dear husband is arriving, we also will have a talent show on that night - so many people here have special talents, are actors, musicians, dancers etc.
Well, I don't have that special talent...so will watch with enjoyment and pleasure what my fellow yogis and yoginis have to show!
Lots of love and see many of you very soon again,
K

Week 7 - more photos....




The top left is the view from my bedroom, top right, and bottom the first outing in 7 weeks!! We went to see the cliff divers in Acapulco, was really great to do a little outing but we're not used to the outside world and environment anymore....so pretty exhausted and were all looking forward to getting back to Yoga base!!

Week 7 - Sunday - some photos...



1st one - Mr. Bikram himself, the boss!

Friday 23 May 2008

Week 7 - Friday - WHAT A WEEK

Well, where should I start.....I've just come back from the strongest class we have ever had in our 7 weeks Training! Which is what Bikram said and I felt super strong and it was Super super good! It keeps on amazing me this Yoga and this training....we've been absolutely killed and slaughtered by Bikram last night and the night before, had numerous students who had to be carried out of the room, breaking down, heat exhaustion or all over body cramping. And today, NOT ONE PERSON LEFT THE ROOM. We were strong, united and full of energy. This is all Bikram's plan, to kill us and then rebuild us. Touch wood, I've not had to leave the Yoga room so far and not experienced any bad cramping, just the occasional numbness in the arms.

Apart from that this week has been really a f.......difficult week. Beginning of the week I think half the students wanted to go home and just felt like they've seen it, done it and were ready to leave....so the atmosphere was strange. I felt like that too, did not have any energy. I've also lost a bit of my confidence in Posture delivery and then finally yesterday, when I delivered Head to Knee with Stretching - I finished after loosing a couple of lines and then said "this was terrible" and burst out into tears in front of 30 or so people.....I think it was a general emotional release of this whole training, the long days, the sore body, the mind having to learn the postures and the pressure of doing a good delivery. And people who know me, that I am a perfectionist and put pressure on myself, so I can be quite hard on myself if I don't perform well.
In any case the posture delivery was fine and it wasn't even terrible, that was just my perception.

It's amazing how many people actually go through a very similar process and feeling quite like I did.

Anyway, one more to go, the Spine Twisting Posture, I couple of people went today but I felt it was better to wait, learn it well over the weekend and make a good final delivery (or at least give my best).

As Bikram says, it's all about trying the RIGHT way.

The lack of sleep doesn't help when you feel a bit shaky anyway and then you have the women's cycle which can also play havoc with the physical and mental state.

Anyway enough of that.

It's now Friday evening and this week felt like a month for me....It's also the pressure of the reality hitting me that I will actually return to England as a Bikram Yoga Teacher (fingers crossed). And I will never again be able to practice in the studio as a student but as a teacher. So a whole range of emotions are involved in this new way of thinking. It's very exciting but also pretty scary.

TODAY IN ONE WEEK my dear husband will be arriving here in Mexico - I can't wait to see him and show him where I have been living for the past 8 weeks and the Yoga studio etc. It's all pretty impressive.

Tonight we have another video night with Bikram, I pray that it wont be past 1am. We all take pillows and ear plugs with us. The ear plugs because they play the film so loud and as we anyway only read sub titles it's more agreeable....

That's it for now.

1 week and 4 days to go. And we are one week ahead with posture clinic. So there might be some extra little posture delivery surprises awaiting us....I hope not and am worried where all the postures are in my brain, hopefully just ready to be used when I'm back in England!!!!

Lots of love,
K the Yogini xxx

Friday 16 May 2008

Friday night - Week 6

Well, finished quite a hard week, with a Craig Class on Friday night!!! As you can imagine, it was super hot, super challenging - the speed he puts on for the Standing series is beyond - but it keeps you rocking I tell you!! My earlier tierdness has vanished (once again after an evening class). AND at the end, when Savasana started instead of a quiet moment the Reggae song, PLEASE DON'T WORRY, ABOUT A THING, EVERYTHING'S GOIN TO BE ALRIGHT.... and the whole room, over 300 People sang the song and clapped with their hands - what else can you do but cry after 6 weeks of Bikram Yoga Training and hearing this song after a Craig Class. People were hugging each other - moments like that make up for a long and challening week.

For those of you who don't know Craig, he is Bikram's left hand an basically our boss and managing this training - he is the BIG MAN so to speak and his classes are like an explosion.

Delivered two postures today and did really well, the teacher who evaluated me said: Awesome, you rock today!!

No free Friday night but posture clinic starting at 9pm. At least now Bikram lecture, which as you might remember, last Friday lasted until 4:15 am! So if I get to bed by midnight tonight, well, that's an early night for me :-)

A weekend ahead and not too many postures anymore to study - the End is getting closer and the mixed feelings about this are bizzare.

But need to study Bow Pose now, might be delivering a third posture today.

It's all going, never stopping, always forward, and as Craig says, we are riding the wave and should TRUST THE PROCESS.

Lots of love,
Katherine xx

Thursday 15 May 2008

Week 6 - Thursday FEELING FANTASTIC!!

Right, here my advice to you - if you ever feel completely run down, have the flu, are ill or just hungover - have a Vitamin B injection!! After sleeping only about 5 hours last night I woke up this morning feeling like I had a solid 12 hrs sleep and feeling full of energy! Just great.

This training keeps on amazing me, the effect it has on me and what I am experiencing here - your mood normally changes a couple of times within one day - from extatic to run down....and again to being happy!!

Posture clinic kick-ed off again today and presented the Cobra with Energy and power. While writing this I am listening to Bikram's Love CD which I bought - it's a bit cheesy but we have listened to some of the songs in the Yoga Room after class which was fantastic, the atmosphere - so this music will always remind me...who knows, maybe I can play a song after class back in London!!!

We are all slowly waking up to the fact that we will be a certified Bikram Yoga teacher in just over 3 weeks - and we are all quite scared about leaving this community to go back to our home studios and teaching a 90 mins class. My aim will be to A) not to forget any of the 26 postures B) not last much longer then 90 mins for the class and C) manage to get the students in and out of the posture. The rest is added benefit!!

Sending you all love and warmth,

Katherine XXXXX

Wednesday 14 May 2008

Week 6 - Wednesday evening

At the moment I'm almost using this blog as my journal...especially after today feel the need to write down a couple of lines.

Well, I woke up this morning feeling dreadful, like when you have the flu - so weak. So I dragged myself to the doctor at 7am (24 hours onsite doctor service which the hotel provides) as I thought I had fever - but did not have fever, did not know why I felt like that, if I was just getting a cold or what. Anyway, to give me strength he gave me a Vitamin B injection - into the bum - which was soo painful - I then went to class, a bit panicky if I could make it in class - but as you might know, it's a very strict attendance policy and you would need a doctors notice if you can't attend and redo class at the weekend. Basically in these 9 weeks no class is allowed to be missed to get the certification. Anyway, I informed the staff and had a couple of outburst of Yoga crying and then settled into a very gentle class missing out some of the postures.

I felt a little better afterwards and during the course of the afternoon I improved. And did tonight's class again with nearly 100% energy - I DON'T UNDERSTAND! Such weird physical and mental things are happening right now - it is a bit scary you know but I know that I just have to acknowledge them and not get anxious about them.

But I am pretty glad when today is over - I wish I could go to bed now and rest and sleep but as everyday we have an evening program with a lecture tonight by Bikram's wife.

At times the lectures are more tuff then the Classes...I wont go into more detail right now but people who have done training know what I'm talking about!

I think a lot of people are feeling exhausted right now and are seeking motivation, energy and vitality. Thank god we have each other and the 280 students supporting each other, talking to each other and giving each other hugs.

I miss so much my friends and family and home - it's not long to go now - just about 3 weeks to go!!!

I do hope you are all well and healthy and in good spirits, every day is a new day, a new beginning, a new opportunity to make it a good day, being positive and content.

No, don't worry, I'm not turning into some guru speaking wise words all the time but I tell you, being here you need to hold on to positive attitude and words as much as you can.

Lots of love,
Katherine the Yogini

Tuesday 13 May 2008

Week 6 - Tuesday evening

It's 8:15 and I've got 10 mins free time to write a couple of lines on my blog. Bikram's wife Rajashree is back for a couple of days, so has been teaching us and lecturing us. It was quite emotional seeing her again as she thought the morning classes in week 1 - when, I must admit, I was unsure I was actually going to survive week 1 :-) - it was really so challenging in all respects. And now I can do her classes and keep my calm and controlled breathing, and even the vomiting amongst the team has stopped! So it's a whole different experience ( I think I didn not mention, the side effects some students have been suffering here in the first couple of weeks, and vomiting is quite normal, there are even special little bins for that purpose)

My practice has become stronger this week despite my very sore knees, but aches and pains are quite normal - but maybe by next week things will calm down and we will build more strength.

I can't believe it's just about 3 weeks to go now - on one hand I am glad to finish this amazing and intense training, on the other hand I think I will miss it terribly and hence I am making a real effort to live in the present and make the most out of every day.

But there are moments when things are dragging, when I am feeling flat, have no energy, wake up in the mornings at 6:30 stiff, tired and sore and unmotivated - but we all keep going, keep going.

We are having another Bikram lecture tonight, most students now take one of their bedroom pillows with them and other things, in case we get a 4am session and would have to camp over in the lecture hall!! Last night we were very lucky and as Bikram's wife cooked dinner for him we were let off early, i.e. 11:15 pm.

Let's see what tonight brings.

The sun is still shining here, every day, and it's getting hotter.

Love the evening Yoga classes - soak them up and get all the energy I need for the training.

I will miss the heat and practising with 280 students - very much.

Lots of love,
Katherine xxxx

Saturday 10 May 2008

Week 5 turning Week 6 - Saturday night

Well, the last 48 hours have been truly super intense.....with Bikram back the lectures have started again and as mentioned in my previous blog on Thursday night I got to bed at 2:30 am. Well, a surprise was then to come on Friday night, with another lecture and continuing watching the epic film until 4:15 am!!! Now I am trying to write my thoughts in a positive and humorous way, although I pretty much lost all humor last night. Given the late night on Thursday we were already very tired at 9pm when lecture started and then when at midnight Bikram said, now Movie on, I really was pretty upset. I was laying on the floor between chairs trying to get some rest, and so did most of the people. It was just impossible for me to keep my eyes open. I only slept about 3 hours max as I could then not get to sleep when we finally got to our beds. And this mornings class, was, as you can expect, not a pleasure, although the teacher was this years Yoga Champion, a lovely lady and was a great teacher, but my body, mind and soul where in 'closed' mode!

I and everybody here have to keep positive, be motivated and keep the energy going. But after the last 2 nights the balance has become a little unbalanced......

I've got a lot of studying to do but just could not manage it today. Slept for 2 hours in the afternoon.

Missing home, England, my friends and family and Chiswick Yoga Studio. I am often in class and then imagine I am in one of the London Yoga studios doing a class there.

Well, good bye for now from a tired and aching Yogini (but still smiling, I am going to concer this!)

Katherine xxxx

PS: check out Jen's blog for a more detailed report about this week and a photo of a body sleeping on the floor in the early hours of this morning......

Friday 9 May 2008

Week 5 - Friday!!

Only have a couple of minutes for a brief update - well, the dreaded and famously most difficult week 5 is nearly over and I am pleased to report that I still have all my bones intact, albeit pretty sore and my mind is also still fully operational!!

It's been an intense week and last night Mr. Bikram kept us up till nearly 2:30 am with lectures and watching the Maharawad....(apologies, forgot the spelling, but it's the famous Indian story about life). And tonight we have another lecture. So this mornings class at 8:30 was surreal, I was so tired, had slept about 4 hours and just did not have the energy. But again, this evening, was all good with Bikram teaching. The evening classes I love and need them very much to get my energy back. The morning ones are a bit like tourture as the body is so sore and aching - but I make it more a meditative class.

Posture clinic is going good, still a bit nervous though - but I guess that is normal. We have so many visiting teachers here which is fantastic.

3 weeks and 4 days to go!!!!!!!

I still can't believe that I am actually very close to becoming a Bikram Yoga Teacher - this is so unbelievable and so amazing. It is truly an honor and a very valuable gift to possess.

Sorry, my words are not flowing very well tonight and it might all not make that much sense what I have written.

I AM TIRED, VERY TIRED :-)

Off to get a coffee now before our 9pm lecture.

GOOD NIGHT

K THE YOGINI XXX

Tuesday 6 May 2008

Week 5 - Tuesday - THE MASTER IS BACK

We have Bikram back!! Nobody knew if he would even arrive this week, due to the death of his best friend. So tonight, for our 5pm class he actually practiced class, he was close to the podium, about row 3 next to Craig and some other teachers, very soon into class we heard him shouting and correcting students next to him. It put a smile on my face and many other faces!! Yes, we have shouting and complaining Bikram back, he brings life into our class!! Halfway through he told the teacher off (senior teacher, can't remember his name but graduated I think 1998) for being to soft and that we are just wimps and need to f..... get better. Anyway, from then onwards it was only shouting, that we are wimps, should f.....get in to the posture etc....but in a fun way, or at least that is the way I took it - but great energy in class - it was really what I needed tonight as I felt a bit lethargic all day.

I delivered Standing Separate Leg Head to Knee Post this afternoon and received really nice feedback, basically saying I delivered the dialogue like a teacher. Well, I could not wish for a better comment but am cautious writing such comments as the delivery is always different, from posture to posture, and I do want to learn and improve. I am working with Cara, one of my Group 10 friends on projection and speaking more forceful (Mum and Dad, don't worry, this is only for my teaching, not in everyday life!) and it really helped with my delivery today.

But I still get heart beating and a feeling of nervous every time I get up to present. I really hope that will fade but it's still there.

Tonight we kick-off at 9pm with Bikram lecture and remembering his friend.

TOMORROW WE ARE HALF WAY THROUGH TRAINING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

AND I AM STILL HERE AND HANGING IN THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I owe many of you who wrote me emails an answer and I do apologize for not yet having responded. I have little free time and tend to use the moments to write to you all but I promise to get back to you very soon.

All of you, my family and friends are in my thoughts.

Sunshine and warmth from Acapulco,

Katherine the Yogini xxxx

Monday 5 May 2008

Week 5 - Monday night

Well, today was a sad day, we only had the morning class Yoga and the rest of the day no training as one of Bikram's closest friends, the sun of his Guru B. Gosh had passed away this morning. I do not know any details - Bikram was supposed to arrive today and will now be coming later in the week only, or even next week. So let's see. I think all the teachers here were quite shocked and sadend by this news.

So it was strange, as I was all hyped up for Monday and this week and then we were told after class that we had the day off and time to do whatever we think appropriate. I studied dialogue by the pool, met up with some of the girls and this evening I finally ventured out of the hotel complex with Simone for some dinner at the 100% natural cafe. It was truly great, cheap and very tasty food and lots of Yogis there. It was such a treat to eat non-hotel food. We then checked out a nearby hotel and had a little walk which was nice. We bought some extra food (brown rice, spinach, broccoli, tofu) for take-away so I have my dinner sorted for tomorrow and Wednesday.

My knees are really hurting during Yoga so todays one class only was a bonus. I will have to take it easy on the knees this week.

Friday in 3 weeks I will see my sweetheart again, it's unbelievable - actually the time is going by fast and I am realizing that I really do need to enjoy the moments, be present and make the most out of this adventure here in Acapulco. But it will be so wonderful to see my dear husband again. For those of you who don't know, Armond is coming out to Mexico at the end of my week 8 - the training finishes week 9 on Friday with a graduation ceremony, at which, if all goes well, I will be present!

Well, the remainder of this week will be very busy no doubt, with a lot of posture clinic and Yoga classes.

Wishing you all a good rest of the week and love from sunny Acapulco,

Katherine xxxx

Saturday 3 May 2008

Week 4 - Saturday morning

Finished my 11th class on week 4 of my training. Had my fellow blog-buddy Jen to my left and 2 Swiss yoginis from Zurich behind me - that was nice - but class was quite though, it's just that I think we are all getting physically and mentally exhausted, which, given we've done over 40 classes in the past 4 weeks, is probably normal. I've just comforted a girl who got cramping during class and was saying - it is just though at the moment. And, as a surprise, we did not have Craig as a teacher this morning, but Mr. Tattoo, Jim Callet, one of Bikram's oldest students. It was a good class but 1.50 mins long.

Well, our group 10 is meeting for brunch and I will go for a swim in the pool today despite that I have to learn at least 5-6 postures this weekend.

Wishing you all a wonderful weekend.

Lots of love,
Katherine xxx

Friday 2 May 2008

Week 4 - Friday Evening

I can't believe that I am writing the number 4 above in the heading of this entry!!!! I honestly did not believe at the beginning that I would make it to week 4....just a quick entry tonight as I am very tired and as we got Friday night off I will shortly go to bed for some desperately needed sleep. It's been another amazing and intensive week, delivered 5 postures in posture clinic, and overall got good feedback altough my english accent and politness is sometimes critised. I need to work on being a little tougher and more forceful. Anyway, keep notes of all the feedback I get and will work on trying to do it the right way. Altough, a lot of students love the english accent and the way I deliver the dialogue....

The Heat is on.....they have upped the heat in the Yoga room and that has yet again been another challenge for all of us. I am slowly getting used to it and drink about 2 litres of water before even leaving the yoga room....generally the morning classes are though and my body is hurting and stiff, the evening classes are much better. We have had some great classes and some, well, less enjoyable classes, had a rocking class with Craig on Wednesday night, it was just amazing, 280 people giving 110% energy in the room, god I will miss such classes when I am back in the UK.

Last weekend we had an earthquake, 5.8 richter scale.it was in Mexico city but we felt it quite a bit here, luckily I was in Robyn's room practicing dialogue but I panicked as I had a bad experience in Eilat a couple of years ago and it really scares me....

I have done approximately 44 yoga classes in 4 weeks, I was not sure that I would actually be able to do this but what I am learning on this training is that we are capable of so much more then we think we can do. This is an amazing discovery.

I go through high and low's, one moment I am exctatic, the other moment I am crying. And that's what we are all experiencing here. But the overall feeling, as I am feeling right now, it just WOW absolutely amazing, amazing, amazing - I think only now I am beginning to understand what this Bikram Yoga is really all about and am discovering the heart and root of this yoga and the 26 postures.

Bikram is back next week so we will have some nice and juicy lectures ahead of us. It will be great to have him back as it feels more complete when he is here.

Sorry I have not been emailing many of you personally but I literally don't have any spare time and the weekends are taken up studying and studying, but I will be in touch very soon again.

Simone and Robyn have become great friends and we give each other support and help and encouraging words when needed. Robyn's family arrived today - she is over the moon to finally seeing them after 4 weeks and I met them before class today. It's so strange seeing her now suddently as a Mum...Lauren and Hayly are lovely girls.

Well, I will sign-off now, my eyes are almost closed.....

Sending you lots of love and sunshine from Mexico,
Katherine the Yogini xxxxxxx

Friday 25 April 2008

Week 3 - Friday - All You Need Is Love.....

I would like to share with you how I am feeling right now - actually it is difficult to put down in words but I will do my best to explain my 'current state of mind' - we have had another challenging week with posture clinic kicking-off, i.e. presenting your dialogue in groups with senior teachers evaluating how you delivered the dialogue. I managed to deliver up to Eagle pose, so a couple of postures, received quite good feedback with some good comments on where I can improve. But there is anxiety there and being nervous so that does affect my delivery a bit. So my day starts around 7am, wake up, a quick bit of study, eat half a banana and a protein shake and at 8am head over to the Yoga room to get myself set up for the 8:30 am class. My day officially ends around 11:30 pm when I get back to my room after a non-stop day and then I can start doing some more study. I think this will be the pattern in the next couple of weeks.

But anyway, I am getting side-tracked. Tonight, we had the 5pm class with Sarah, energetic it was but my body and my mind was on the tired side. But as we were laying in Savasana, the resting period before the floor series start, she said how awesome we are and how great teachers we will be - it was kind of the first time I really felt that they (the teachers here) were giving us love and warmth.....anyway, we finished the class and then she said she has some good news for us: That we have a free night with no posture clinic, so the whole room (remember, 280 students) clapped and whistling and were really happy!! Then we layed down and rested and Sarah explained to us that she loved listening to the Beatles and that one of the recent songs she was listening to reminded her of us. It was the song, 'All you Need is Love' - and she said: above anything else, go out to the world and teach Yoga with LOVE. She ended and then a remake version of the Song was played in the big studio - it was just amazingly overwhelming and I started crying and could not stop, I was so overwhelmed with what I am doing here on this training, what I have achieved in these first 3 weeks, the love I have for my dearest husband and my family and friends and and all the Yoga students in the room. I cannot describe in words how this feeling really was, unique, magical, precious - the girl next to me grabbed my hand and asked if I was ok, we were just laying there holding each others hands......quite a few people got emotional in that moment.

Right now I feel so much love and compassion for myself and everybody out there in the world.

I realised for the first time tonight, what I am really doing and how this will definitely be the most unique and special experience in my life, despite my very sore hamstrings, my aching knees, my tiredness (11 Yoga classes a week, each 90 mins!).

I hugged Dr. T tonight, he was our Anatomy instructor and yippee, anatomy lectures are finished and our second exam is on Monday. I did ok on the first exam getting 49 out of 50 points. FIY, the jaw bone is called mandible!

Well, I will sign off now, studying and meeting Robyn shortly for some live dialogue training.

I think I need a good nights sleep tonight.

I have a slight suspicion that I will return from Acapulco saying that I have had the most amazing time of my life (apart from my wedding day!).

Soon I am half way through, I am aware that more though and challenging times are ahead of me but my spirit and mind are in the right place to give me strength and love and support.

With lots of love,
Katherine the happy Yogini xxxxxxx

Sunday 20 April 2008

Week 2 - Sunday (last day of week 2!)

Dear Husband, family and friends,
It's Sunday 11am - I HAVE COMPLETED WEEK 2!!!! It's been a good week, learning about anatomy, practising 11 Yoga classes, had various lectures and kick-ed off the Posture Clinic. My last 2 classes on Friday evening and Saturday morning were challenging for me - but the amazing thing is that even after complete exhaustion it takes not more then 10 mins usually until you recover and feel good and energetic. I run down to the sea and oh wow, have a refreshing dip in the cool water!!

Bikram sadly left us this week and will be back around week 5 and stay for the remainder of the training. I felt sad seeing him go and miss not having him here.

Well, we have our first anatomy test tomorrow and dialogue training is kicking-off. Have to memorise 26 postures by heart in the next 5-6 weeks. I had a moment of being completely freaked out yesterday, panicking about if I can do this dialogue and if I can do the anatomy....I've not been doing exams for a very long time and being under pressure to perform and being exposed. Anyway, today I am feeling much better and my counsellor husband Armond has giving me a good talking and we agreed that next week, week 3, will be a trauma free week and then I could have all the trauma in the world the following week. That sounds like a good deal to me!!

For those of you reading my blog who have not been through this training this must sound all very strange and maybe difficult to understand... just imagine, your are being taken totally away from your comfort zone and anything which has been familiar to you in your life and be dropped in the unknown, new people, new home, new country and a completely different day to day life. And this for 9 weeks!!
Well, that's what is happening to me here.

In case you want to know what muscles you use for breathing, it is the diaphragm and the intercostal muscles and the muscles which allow you to stand on top of your toes are the soleus and the gastrocnemius!!

Well, I will now continue some studying, then will pop to the beach for a swim and have a deep tissue massage booked for 5pm and a quite evening at home (in my hotel room!!) Bye the way, had music and partying going on every night since Thursday but what would have never been possible before is that I actually went to sleep with the sound of disco in my bedroom - that's yoga for you!!

I send you all sunshine and warmth - I am on track to becoming a true yogini and hopefully a Yoga Teacher - even the experiences of these first 2 weeks have been so amazing and I feel I want to share these unique moments and what we are capable of as a human being with all Bikram Yoga students back home. I am beginning to understand what this is all about......

Lots of love,
Kate the Yogini xxx

Thursday 17 April 2008

Week 2 - Thursday night

It's 23.15 pm and we got released early tonight, i.e. at 10:30 but there is a massive event on at the hotel for the next 4 days with live bands and lots of music, so it feels like a disco in my bedroom. Now we have been asked to act yogic about this and remain, calm, concentrate and not get irritated by the fact that I can't go to sleep for at least another 2 hours...which I am trying very hard to follow - and to enjoy the Spanish live bands outside!!!

We have had some really interesting lectures by Bikram this week - so much about life, the way we conduct ourselves in life, culture and philosophy of life in India versus the rest of the world. I keep notes of the important points he makes - it is really fascinating listening to him. Al tough we do all get pretty tired in the evenings....he did say that our training was 24 hrs and sleeping is a luxury!!

Anyway, the Yoga classes - I have gotten stronger altough my balancing postures are not quite balanced right now, slipping on the carpet and trying to improve the set-up. My body is now starting to ache at various places, all normal we are told and just work through the pain. I have all my Swiss remedies with me for muscle pain etc. The rest at the weekend really worked wonders for my body and I was so much more energetic then last week - but the morning classes are challenging, sore and stiff and tired....we are all still hanging in there and going with the process and following the flow. We sweat by the bucket loads and I drink 4-5 litres of fluid a day.

Posture clinic will kick-off next week so this weekend I will be studying anatomy and the dialogue.

Well, I've nearly completed the first 2 weeks of training - I still can't quite believe that I will come out of this as a Yoga Teacher! And that I have survived nearly 2 weeks. I must admit last week that seemed an impossible task for me...but we are all capable of a lot more then we think. And I have really experienced that first hand.

I'm still meeting new people every day, so many different stories people have to tell about where they are from and why they are here. It's truly fascinating and magical.

Thanks again for all the supportive and kind emails and comments from you!

Lots of love from Mexico,
Katherine xxx

Monday 14 April 2008

Week 2 - Monday night

I'm trying to rush done my pot noodles in my bedroom so I have time to quickly make an entry in my blog! I had an ok weekend but glad that the bootcamp has kicked-off again today - want to keep busy otherwise I start thinking too much about home....not that I am complaining!!

First of all I would like to thank you all for your kind and supporting comments and emails I received - it is wonderful to know that I can keep in touch with you over the next 8 weeks and let you know what is happening in my Bikram Teacher Training life.

Yipee, today, for the first time after 10 classes I felt strong again and actually like a Bikram Yogini!! This morning, Bikram's most senior teacher Emy was teaching, she will be here all week. I really enjoyed her class. And this evening Bikram again. It was a energetic class and I felt good and had a smile on my face - and then at the end he played one of his songs on CD - it was really touching and the atmosphere in the room with 280 people AMAZING AND POWERFUL. I was smilling up to the ceiling in my savasana. And afterwards I went up to Bikram and said how lovely this song was - he was humble and his eyes were glowing and he was smiling. Then I run down to the sea for a quick dip. This is unique.

My aim on this Training is to live for the present, enjoy and accept each moment for what it is, be it good or maybe less good - I realise that I will have moments of strength and moments of weakness but hey that is what will make me stronger and maybe just a very little more wiser.

Anatomy lectures started today - oh dear, there is so much of the body and sceletal system to learn....mmh, glad I never decided to become a doctor!!

Apologies for any mistakes - lots of love - will be in touch in a couple of days,


Katherine xxxx

Sunday 13 April 2008

Week 1

I have decided to keep a blog to write down my experiences of being part of the Spring 2008 Bikram Teacher Training in Acapulco.

One week has passed by, probably the most challenging week of my life (even the 2 juice fast retreats I have done in the past are a piece of cake in comparison to this experience!). I have been keeping a daily journal which we have been encouraged to do. So this is just a little insight of what has been going on in my life last week. I arrived safely in Mexico Friday week ago, smooth flight and and baggage arrived as well (apparently many other students missed connection flights and luggage got lost). It was not easy to say good-bye to my dearest husband Armond, who took me to the airport but we both remained strong, positive and happy about the challenge we were both about to face, being apart for 8 weeks. Luckily, Armond is going to come to Acapulco at the end of week 8 and will stay here for graduation and then we will have a couple of days together before flying back to the UK.

Before I continue I would like to thank all my family and friends for their support, encouraging words and positive attitude towards me taking on this rather crazy challenge!!

My hotel room is very nice and comfortable, with a balcony and stunning sea view. Most people are sharing rooms so this is a real privilege to have my own room.

Last Sunday was orientation day which lasted about 3 hours and was a gentle introduction into the 9 weeks ahead of us and quite a bit of house-keeping. Then we were invited to dinner, the first of many many buffets meals at the hotel.

We are about 290 students on the course. Monday morning we met Bikram!!! This was quite a touching and emotional moment to finally meet the man who's Yoga I have been practising for the past 3 years!

Monday afternoon at 4pm was our first Yoga Class, The studio has been purpose built and is pretty amazing (used to be indoor Tennis courts). I was nervous, anxious and a little panicky. The feeling of being in a room with 290 people practising yoga is unique and there is such an energy present.

My first weeks Yoga classes:
Well, I wont go into too much detail but will say that they were really challenging classes for me, there was quite a bit of fear there, insecurity and many more emotions.....this is all normal I hear and no reason to panic, as MANY MANY students go through similar emotions.

Bikram said that this 1st week we were all experiencing a huge imbalance as the way we have been living our life previously has totally changed,but by next week nothing will bother us...and again we should trust the process.

Apart from the 2 classes per day (90 mins each in a hot and very humid room). We have had all 290 students present the Half Moon Pose dialogue to Bikram. All the lectures are held in a auditorium here at the hotel, with a stage and seats, so quite different to when Armond did his training in LA. We still have about 60 people to go on stage so this has taken up most of week 1.

I presented my posture on Wednesday and was pleased that it went well, Bikram's comments were: "very sweet, very convincing, good....a couple of small things that I will now not comment on but will get fixed once you start the posture clinic training".

I have already met many lovely people, every day at least somebody new. But 2 people I got to know really well this week and how have been a tremendous support to me were Robyn and Simone. Simone is from London and Robyn from Albuquerque, New Mexico. It was a real blessing to spend time with them and get their support. There is a big Wal-Mart close by which is good and we've been shopping there already twice.

I drink about 4-5 litres of water a day and eat a lot! Basically Craig said we should eat double then we normally do! The food at the hotel is very good and we get a free buffet every day.

It's now Sunday morning close to 10am and I will shortly go down for some Breakfast. Realised that the weekends will be when I miss Armond, my friends, my family and my home the most. But have to keep myself distracted and keep my goal alive of becoming a Bikram Yoga Teacher!!
There are beautiful swimming pools here and a stunning sea (which we have been going to after Yoga classes, straight in with our Yoga clothes on! That is a great and so refreshing!)

It is all a process and we have to trust the process. That is what they keep saying and I do believe it.

There is so much more to tell but at least you now have an idea of how things are going down here in sunny Acapulco!

My next blog entry will be shorter and hopefully more frequent! I've only just set it up after Robyn told me about her blog and I thought it was a great idea to communicate to the outside world.

It is such a privilege to be here and experience this, and despite my fear at times I am overwhelmed by the friendliness of the people here on the course and the support we are getting from Bikram, Craig and the senior teachers.

Lots of love,
Katherine